I found the song already, its Whitney Houston- Run to you.
The lyrics was slightly wrong.
the second stanza should be like this....
But if i run to you~ouuuu
Will you stay or will you run away..
(I guess i know the answer)

Found this song yesterday, til the whole night i never got to sleep. Everyone in college asked me, why am i so moody.
I just kept my head down, because i worry once i started to talk about it again i might cry.

I do hate myself for being such a drama queen, but i can't keep inside my heart either. It just a like boom ready to explode anything it triggers.
I cant hide my emotional side, my whole day & night was destroyed. Totally destroyed by small matter, and i made it very big.

I wonder, do he ever think of me ? like i did ? wondering if his ok, what his conditions are, happening in his life and such on. He didn't even gave me a hope that in future there might be a chance, just a slightly sign that i could see. Totally non, it reminds me that he said 'once its over, i will never go back'.
I dont even dare to ask him.
I guess, just move on. Won't get that chance, just keep going and looking forward to the future that is in fornt of me.

All the things, he gave me before i put in a box where i dont normally see. So that, it wont bothering me. What's left was the blanket that is like tiger print on it but its pink & brown, i use to hug it to sleep. It not my baby pillow that i usually hug to sleep.

Next week, is mid term exam. Im having problem with the business maths, no one that i could find to teach me. :'(

*honest