After so long, i thought its lost.
Cleaning up my room and the other stuff that was still in the box that belong to me, i bring them all out. Then, i saw this.........
I call this bear, teddy bear Lao gong.
Its because my ex give it to me when his going to Kuantan to study.
When i saw this, right away my tears drop. It reminds me a lot of good & bad memory.
Im waiting for the right time, to explain everything that I've done for him, so that he will understand me.
By right time, means when we're both stable and our feels with one another is nutural.
I dont know when will it happen and I worry that i will forget because i want to end our friendship since the day that i went to look for him and he was playing card game while i was trying to reconnect with him. Other thing, with his friends in fornt and side by side.
How on earth will I tell my problems, i mind that his friends around. He dont get me and continue play till his balls drop.
Anyways, he gave/ reminded me of our bad times then good. In the matter of fact, there is more sweet memory between us. The issue of his collage in Kuantan its only us who know the real problem. Sometimes i felt guilt for what had happened to him and yet I totally understand why he did so. Therefore, sometime i need to put myself away from him. I put my tough face on while my heart is crying to go back.
The main reason is because I dont want and wont let it happened again.
I hope he can try to put the pieces together and get the whole picture. It is important to me that he gets it, nor mater what other people thinks Im doing. I don't care as long as he get it, that's why when i know he dont get it and tell people different story makes me very angry. I always want the best for him.
He always tell me that it is not easy to forget me, I know his lying because he deleted our picture, that's is the very first step to find another girl. Am I right ?
Which i know in future he get one.
I hope his still remember what i told him, "don't treat her the way you treat me". I hope that he truly remember it.
In the past, we were one. A part of me still worry and care for him no matter what. I support him in every ways. The is on weakness of me when in come to him, he has a perfume that can make me think of him for one week. I know its insane but no joke its true, its like a drug you longing for it to be able to smell it again.
Does that make sense?
I hope so.
Back then, our second home was the Viva mall and Tuition center. Dont undereastment this places, gosh, crazy stuff we did back then.
I always wanted to bring him to Full House, but it never happened sad case.
Talking about promise, I remember another thing. When he grow up(mentality) i mean his not crazy its just go through more experience, then when the time is right. We give ourself another chance. That was our promise.
Everyone knows as time goes by things change people change even feelings change the only way to know the result is when time comes.
I hope he get to see this, cause last time he use to read my blog.
Ci bai, miss you. But most of all, study hard yet remember to play hard. Hahahahaha ~
Whatever it is your doing Good luck.
( i miss place the ring he gave, i hope when i saw it again i wont written something about it. )
FINGER CROSS.
Cleaning up my room and the other stuff that was still in the box that belong to me, i bring them all out. Then, i saw this.........
I call this bear, teddy bear Lao gong.
Its because my ex give it to me when his going to Kuantan to study.
When i saw this, right away my tears drop. It reminds me a lot of good & bad memory.
Im waiting for the right time, to explain everything that I've done for him, so that he will understand me.
By right time, means when we're both stable and our feels with one another is nutural.
I dont know when will it happen and I worry that i will forget because i want to end our friendship since the day that i went to look for him and he was playing card game while i was trying to reconnect with him. Other thing, with his friends in fornt and side by side.
How on earth will I tell my problems, i mind that his friends around. He dont get me and continue play till his balls drop.
Anyways, he gave/ reminded me of our bad times then good. In the matter of fact, there is more sweet memory between us. The issue of his collage in Kuantan its only us who know the real problem. Sometimes i felt guilt for what had happened to him and yet I totally understand why he did so. Therefore, sometime i need to put myself away from him. I put my tough face on while my heart is crying to go back.
The main reason is because I dont want and wont let it happened again.
I hope he can try to put the pieces together and get the whole picture. It is important to me that he gets it, nor mater what other people thinks Im doing. I don't care as long as he get it, that's why when i know he dont get it and tell people different story makes me very angry. I always want the best for him.
He always tell me that it is not easy to forget me, I know his lying because he deleted our picture, that's is the very first step to find another girl. Am I right ?
Which i know in future he get one.
I hope his still remember what i told him, "don't treat her the way you treat me". I hope that he truly remember it.
In the past, we were one. A part of me still worry and care for him no matter what. I support him in every ways. The is on weakness of me when in come to him, he has a perfume that can make me think of him for one week. I know its insane but no joke its true, its like a drug you longing for it to be able to smell it again.
Does that make sense?
I hope so.
Back then, our second home was the Viva mall and Tuition center. Dont undereastment this places, gosh, crazy stuff we did back then.
I always wanted to bring him to Full House, but it never happened sad case.
Talking about promise, I remember another thing. When he grow up(mentality) i mean his not crazy its just go through more experience, then when the time is right. We give ourself another chance. That was our promise.
Everyone knows as time goes by things change people change even feelings change the only way to know the result is when time comes.
I hope he get to see this, cause last time he use to read my blog.
Ci bai, miss you. But most of all, study hard yet remember to play hard. Hahahahaha ~
Whatever it is your doing Good luck.
( i miss place the ring he gave, i hope when i saw it again i wont written something about it. )
FINGER CROSS.
