Busy again .

Sorry for not update my blog, i've been busy lately and each night i have to go war with Jack Ass(Erwan).
War between he and I have not end yet.

Im not sure, how long will it last. I know know that when Im bored with it, seriously i will nuclear boom him.
By the way, if any of his friends reading this. PLEASE, i beg you ! Ask him to move on with his life.
Help me !!

Sometimes i do hurt myself, so that i can release my anger. I might be smiling for outside but inside..... You know how it goes.
Each time, i image myself beat him up like a punching bag. And, kick it like Bruce Lee does, til fly 3 building high.

It might sounds fake but no joke, I do image like that. So, each time i saw him, i will smile cause its funny.

Does it make any sense?
Mmmmmm~

My parents on and off argue til i just walk off by myself because i notice it end up them settle a little bit more faster then they use too.

Just send snow white for service but after few days got problem again. Now, dad's baby car also went for service and have to leave it there for few days.

Guess what i did while waiting for dad when he send to service the car, oh, i forget to mentioned .. Mom and i waited for him outside where is hot and tiring.



I did it !
I copycat the actress in the movie call hunger games. Her hair was nice! Not bad movie though.


I watch two movies last night, the other was Titines something could not remember.

I spend all my money today and it not even April yet. Sad case :(

Went to listen to the band again.




In between this time, they argue. Its like every 3 hours for today.

Wtf... Right ?


What a day...............

First love ?

Just now, guess what time i sleep ? not 3 am not 4 am, its 7 am people !!!
why did i sleep so late ? This jack ass(erwan ), dont know when to let go.

Haiz ~ macam-macam lah he said. He even showed me naked picture !
My patang betul to settle with this kind of people. Im damn tired.

Then Hor, my mom scolded me for not waking up. She wants go pasar, i felt like erwan always bring me bad luck.
Anyone wants him ? i give for free .
Get him away from me ! T_T

I just got back from church, i get to see my old buddy all the way from New Zealand and his brother is my first love. Most of the people thought is Bryant.

I miss them, after 8 years... The feeling of being a small kid refresh me. <3



<3


My buddy <3


My two little cousin.



Cwus group !!!!
a lot more missing.....

Im quite bored this days, Im not particular sure what time i sleep at night but i know its very late. Now i normally woke up at 2 -3 in the afternoon. I have to complement my bed cause it very comfortable. Hehe~

It made me feel like time goes by very fast but i did nothing after i finish all the house duty.

Arrr~ my room is half done, still no carpet and sofa. Those are the stuff i need left for my room, the other things are done.

Since spm result will be a day early(thought at 22 March), by now have a week or 6 days left.
Oh my gosh !!!!!
~.~
this makes me nerveracking.

I wanna study !!!
Yup! i know it will be more hard on college but i prefer go study then be in the house. All my plans of going travel or going some where off the city seems to fail if not i wont be complaining about it. Huh...

Being in the single life, give me more time to do whatever the hell i want. I dont have to report or ask permission to go out(mom of course still need). It is actually more peaceful and relax, just what i want and need in my life right now.

Im not rushing to find a boyfriend, because that is just another pain in the ass. There is no question that i want a new one as long its my ideal type of guy.
I swear to myself, no more mama's boy. Gosh, after what i experience, i truely understand why mostly of the girl's out there(including me) hate to date mama's boy.

If you havent been through it,trust me, you BETTER don't go for it cause you will regret. Im 100% sure ! no joke !
*Im advice to anygirl who is reading.
Im really aware of that now. I take it very seriously. So, wish me luck ! <3
:)

My goal at the moment is just make myself busy with anything that interest me and enjoy teenager life style.

I want to go for shopping more often and buy a lot of make up ,since M.A.C. is the best cosmetics product, i need to keep money so that i can buy them.

I forget to mentioned in the previous post that the band in Asam Pedas restaurant, thier last performance will be this coming Sunday. It is heartbroken to know thier leaving. But who will replacing them ?
o.0 ???

Actually, this post will be the continuation of yesterday's post.
'11.03.12'

I remember that yesterday i said that my family and i went watch movie, back to back but it really did happened cause we got caught something more fun.

So, before that, this is the first time i watch a horror movie that wont make me refresh back when i went to bed. Guess what horror movie was that.



Hahahahaha , from the picture you know why on earth will i watch this.movie right?

When its finish we wanted to watch the movie called 'This means war'.
But we we're caught by something like i mentioned a while ago.

We have a walk around the street market that only open during weekends at Curve. They mom said she want to sit in fornt of the restaurant that called Asam Pedas, they have a small band there. We were sitting down next to a Arabian people. They made the environment much fun because they like to dance and have fun but they do not dare to step forward.

Then, suddenly a grandmother and her grandson dancing on the center where people pass by to enter the entrance. The moment i was the grandmother dance i knew she know how to dance.

Everyone who was there watch them, then when the band started to sing the song 'I will always love you'. By the way, the grandmother name is Susan (same like my mom). Her husband hold her hand and dance sweetly. Sweet right? Although old still have the romance.



As time goes by, more people start to dance.







How nice to be loved by your old grandparents?
T_T





It was so amazing, to be part of it.
Everyone there enjoined the day, the final song was at 10.30 pm and yet there are a lot of people still dont want to go home.

On the way back, parents argue till 12 am.
no comment on this.
I slept at 2 am.....................

Just a while ago, dad bring me and mom watch movie 'John Carter'. I recommen everyone to watch it. I'll give 4 star for this movie. Do you think there will be a continuation for this movie ? I hope it does, because i think the writer has a very good imagination and a good story to add in.

Actually, dad just reach home from J.B. For two days, as i open the gate. He insist me and mom to get dress quickly, but mom took her own sweet time to get dress. Oh, well as usually, while dad kept hoping the ticket won't sold fast.
Hahahahaha....

Ever since i dream of JNKL, i've been thinking about him a lot. Mmmmmm~ i wonder why ? The more that i think of him, the more jealous i get cause his gf treat him so so so good.
How i wish someone could take care of me for once. :(
I always think of other people first then me. Until no one really think of what i feel, they only see who's face look sadder then the other one and they will sympathy that person.
Have anyone cross thier mind ? Thinking that the other person should deserve sympathy too ? not only the one with a sad face?

Aiyayayaya~
I feel hopeless to know the answer of it.

By the way, is anyone counting the days for spm result ? I might look like it's a piece of cake but it's not, hell ya, im nervous !!

This whole day, i was on YouTube for whole day along. Arr~ of course after i finish all my house stuff duty.
Its Korean newly wed, cute and sweet couple, i adore them both. I saw this video cause im seaching for hair tutorial video and i come cross and found them. The name is Beautymeeh. Incase, you wanna check it out. Just about them not the make up or hair tutorial's video.
To me, she looks like a doll. Awwwwh,cute !

There is a some bum on my head, im not really sure what it is but its hurting so badly. Can it cure ?
T.T

On the other hand, its 3.50 am now, i actually should be sleeping cause i can't afford to be late tomorrow but i can't sleep as usual and i'll be posting this one tomorrow, so, basically my post is a day late.
Mmmmmm~ i don't think anyone mind right?

11.03.12


I cant believed that one of the sister in church thought dad was my husband.
Am i that old ?
o.o "

Gonna watch movie again today, two movie !!!!!!!
Weeeeeee~

I never wrote anything about Erwan in my blog anymore even though i very piece off or thankful to him.

His way of thinking is still immature yet, so my way of settling things with him is also immature.

So, when i write something that is related to him. He thinks that i still care or "love" him still, but actually not. This is the place where I express myself and the way i think of things, or how i feel about those things and my opinion about it.

I have wrote that this blog is my diary, mostly about daily life. Im not a writer, i don't create story and i don't make up story.

Anyone is welcome to read, if your not interested you may leave. It is easy as that. But please do forgive me for my grammar mistaken and spelling. I do make this mistaken offen but Im learning.

I do have to apologies to anyone in Facebook if i have disturb anyone about my insults to Erwan's wall. Or even to my on wall in my second account.

He dont understand if i scold him, he never rethink about the stuff he do or say. I have to tell him little step by little before he understand. If you can't be with my standard, just go away. The word that i prefer to use is fuck off.

Without pushing and scolding, he is just there. Waiting and waiting, if you ask me from the look of his face. He will waiting for order cause that's the way his mother treat him.

Yes, i can teach him things that he don't know but please Im not a mother. I need a boyfriend not a bodyguard, big baby, idiot, kid in my life. If i continue to let it be the same, i should not be called as girlfriend anymore, it should be mentor not lover.

I've once say before, for me in relationship there must be trust. Without it will you believe whatever your partner tells you ? No right? You, yourself will be wondering that is it true or just another story that he/she make up? Tell me, with honest heart, wont you think the same as I ? Or to foolish to believe it. Till one day, when it's to late then only you realized he/she lied or cheated.

I kept reminding him and scolding, his action only get better after a year. But within that whole year, the result is not as what i wanted it to be.

I really cant have it in life right now. His not the one for me. Life with him is horrible, each time like there is war. Go out also like war because too much enemies outside the walls. I honestly can that me and him is not a couple, no matter what name's he call me in remains the same just friends.

I cannot be with a person who cant even protect me. People might say, it has been a year, why not compromise?

My answer will be my heart really not happy, no matter what i do my heart is not happy. In love, which one do you follow? by heart or by mind ?
It's like a glass once was a beautiful glass but a careless person drop it even though by accident, can you put back that glass back it's original place ?
no matter, how will you put it. The scars can never hide.
It's gone forever. Even though it was accident, it's gone. If you do apperciate what you have will you let those things happen ? Nothing is excuse when you understand the meaning of apperciate.

I've a comfortable bed to still on, and i realized that I don't wanna get up during the day. Till my mom had to shut my name and ask me to get my butt off the bed.

Well, after cooking and cleaning mom and i went off to Sunday Giza to buy her things that she wanted.
Along the way, i found something that caught my eye its the wall sticker " Hello Kitty " . I do like hello Kitty very much indeed, it was my mom who first introduce to me it. She went to Japan to work before and during that time hello Kitty was very popular.

I like it because to me it's like very girlish and looks relax and its pink.



Then, i come across the smell of vanilla. I love love love vanilla candle. So, i bought some for my room.




I finally finish with my project.


Maybe gonna up grade it soon or maybe not. See how ~

Dad bought new laptop again it's Hp.

Very heavy, i wonder why ?

Just come back from Pavillion, eat dinner and watch movie. At cinemax dont have and at 1 utama, so decided go Pavillion.

For this year, my top favorite movie will be The iron lady. Everything about her i like. My mom knew so much about her, impressive. Actually, i never knew that my mom is interested in politics until i was in the age that i know what is the meaning of politics. She never get to achieved this dream because her parents did not bother much about studies. In other words, no support and no knowledge about it.

That's why, for me moral support is always important.

Today's church was good, nothing yo complain about and lucky dad and i was not late because we had to go back to the cheras house to change his cloths. He left all his cloths behind he only bring few house cloths and work uniform.

After that, went back again to cheras cause dad finally wanna fix his car and leave it to the work shop for a day.

When reach home,dad suddenly suggested to go jalan-jalan. The shopping center that is near to my house is the Curve and Ikea. From my house to there is only 10 minute but if jam it's 15-20 minute.

Dad bought new shoes for himself, it has been 5 years since he brought any new shoes for himself. I even remember it was at Maluri Jusco sale. Now, he can buy a better shoes for himself and it cost one month of his salary to buy his shoes because their are from Gucci, two shoes and one belt as always.

Daddy even bought me be Canel bag that add in my bags collection. So, now i have 2 Blurrbery and 1 Canel. I hope by the end of this year i can buy a bag from Coach, for now that is my mission. ;)

I wanted to watch Iron lady but they don't have at Curve. Tomorrow have to go 1 utama to watch.
Mmmmm~

DIM

It stands for "did it myself". =)
Now, my room is my own to use. Weeeeeee ~
Mom got her bed already, so now she wont be s)sleeping on top of the floor.

i DIM my dresser and I LOVE IT !!


then become this


then a little bit of twist .


got teddy bear gift rapper, i buy it 3 years ago.

Tomorrow my church going to have a special event, hopefully nobody disturb like what had happened this morning. Having enough sleep is very important.

By the way, i forget to mentioned that my next door neighbour knock on my door this morning with a hush and bad temper complaining about my mom's rooster, that the rooster make noise and it begin at 6 am.

The time when he knock the door is 6.30 am. All i can say is, i never feel so stupid before in front of other people. Mom said that i just woke up and very blur with the situation. She told me that if i was not that blur i already fuck gao gao.

It might have a war soon,between dad and that basterd neighbour, i know my dad pass history, and his not afraid of bring a person down on his knees. I know what can he do. I've seen it all.

Today is another day that is not my day. Haiz ~