What a busy month I've just been through but most of the time is always arguing with someone. Haiz~ Do you know what's my biggest  problem now? 

I did not really start my revision yet and even though I try to study the next hour my concentration is gone.

There is another thing that I have been thinking for a long time. Form 5 prefects should be fully retire but it has been postpone til September or October. The teachers keep on postpone it makes me feel want to resign my duty.So, I was wonder should I just resign?

But there is other thing, that strike me. That day when Pn.Chin was scolding all the prefects, she said that "If you can't do your duty for 20 mins and during recess 20 mins. Then, just resign on the spot. "

It may sound easy but it is more than that. Im still trying to figuring it out, cause now days I don't really go to school because of tired doing my duty and being late on my duty.

Tomorrow will be monthly test and I truly did not study not at all. I know that this exam is only few chapter and it is only base on Form 5. To be honest, this year I feel like I did not study just playing around but I class I don't really talk much and did not play much either. I always sleep, I don't know what makes me feel so tired.

So, I take this test as a test for myself if I do understand what I've been learning in my form 5 chapters. But you know what? I don't want to be in the bottom of the class. Although that might not be possible but who knows right? 

How life for me ? My stress is never ending.Wish that the spm fast come and go. So that, I would make me so headache. Problems always coming. Once there is not problem life it feels so peaceful but when problem comes it continues come one after another. As my friend always tell me, " This is life !! ". 

As for my love life..........................

Just finish arguing. This week was HELL !!! Than, when I check my fb. Syg said that syg's coming back to k.l. That time I was thinking sure marh?? My mind said don't play. On friday, I know that syg really is coming back for real because of the argument. Well, of course from my sista. Everything goes to her when there is a problem cause there is someone always find her. Sikit-sikit also find her already. LOL !

But what else can I do that person is degil. Just follow along. I degil if I don't want rather than that I think nothing liao gua. O.O" 

hmmmmm, before this week syg also got come back to visit me. That time was syg's first time to visit me since syg left to kuantan for 2 weeks.  I know when syg is acting weird. Wanna know why?? hehe~ this one I wont tell cause this is my secret weapon. 

On the day he first came back, we went for a dinner to a fancy restaurant and propose to me. Warh, frankly  damn malu to see or to talk but still over joy. I LOVE THE RING !! It is simple, looks sexy, very shinning, and also fit. Arr, the thing that I cant forget is Syg really watch harry potter with me than my sis came along. So, hahahahahaha~ both of them are involved. 

Syg's promise did fulfill !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That day I was so in a good mood. Some more syg keep on hugging me is not I keep on hugging syg. Well, I think we took a lot of picture that day but those picture is with sista till now haven't upload yet. There's a lot of picture I like. I wish I faster get a new phone so that I wont have difficulty of taking picture and wont keep on boring people using their phone. 

I want a new phone syg also want a new phone. Now taking about money again. Can haven drop some money for me? arrr~ not some is 3 begs of money for me? All is full of money.How lucky am I ? hahaha~ If that happens. =)

Syg has prove a lot of things to me. I know in future syg wont disappoint me. Im actually smiling now. =)

As you can see, the picture on top at the corner there is a little cute teddy bear. That's syg gift to me, I put there because when I wake up I saw the teddy bear. It reminds me of my big teddy bear. hehe~  If you can't see it. I give you some tipis is on top of a yellow flower basket.

So, next week Wednesday is SMKSM sports day. Which I think it will be a fun day for those who love sports cause they get to compete with different color of houses. But the after that week all form 5 need to face examination again~ As everyone said "Im not prepared !!"
It goes the same thing to every student in form 5.

Tomorrow Im going to SMK Cheras again for Teknik menjawab Ekanomi Asas start at 8 in the morning til 4 in the afternoon. Gosh, that a long day !

I suddenly miss all my yoga lesson the teachers and getting sweating like just finish taking bath but it also allow me to release my tension and must not forget to keep my body maintain slim. Im not LCLY anyone who is reading my blog now but it may help you to maintain till your old. Because I plan when I gave birth in future I don't wanna have a big tummy. All im doing this just for my future =)
I wanna go back   )=

I promise myself to start studying but til now Im only do half the work nit yet full. I know is not too late yet. So, lady and gentle man wish me LUCK !!! always think positive and smile even though people around might think your nuts but let me tell you it really helps you.

My eyes are really bangkak, I tried to put ice but it make me even more sleep but can't sleep.Arr~when my eyes gets real bangkak like now its call because of arguments, pressure, stress, tension... you mention it I've got  all of it even love sick. Im really trying  find time to have relax and I can enjoy myself just for one day I am more than happy. Im a damn girly personality so you get what I mean when I said girly right ? spa, shopping, going to beach, go some where new for journey. 

GOSH, that will be so freaking awesome!!! So, well, well, one day left and its Friday baby..! Im am super excited. What can possible go wrong ?? aiks, I forget my temper. ><" But hey, Im trying to be more understanding . No joke, Im begging for peace in my live now. 

How can I forget? My harry potter movie but tomorrow. Erm, I don't if I say this before but Im happy and sad at the same time cause this movie is the final chapter and happy cause I can't wait to see what is the movie about and the ending part is important to know. Who wins who lose, all those things. 

This pass few days, there is something bordering me. Arr~ a lot of people around the world have eye bags for some reason they did not have enough sleep or always sleeps late and other else. Well, for my case I've not only have eye bags but also few lines of veins. It has irritates me very much, at first I never took serious about it but now yes ! I wonder why do I have vein under my eyes while other people don't? What have cause me to have this veins.

When people ask me about it. I was totally speechless about it. I wish to get rid of this veins. Before it becomes more worst or more. I don't want to go for surgery although it can get rid that easily but still surgery is not something that you wanna play with. It can cause life and dead ! No way, I will go for it. There is no other way to allow it to fades away without causing any consequences ?

I hope to get some answers.

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I am so thankful that my syg still remembers me. And having syg is a wonderful thing. Syg has been my back bone through good time and bad times. I really appreciate it with all my heart and soul. At this moment, I felt guilty because since yesterday I promise to skype with syg. In the end, I did not get to skype cause my mom lock the room and at that time the modem was not on. So, arrrrrrrrr T.T

I get all excited when syg told me that syg coming back for 1 and half day here back in k.l. Plain a lot of things to do before syg go back. I've got sometime very proud of saying this that syg really keeps syg's promise !!! syg told me that syg will watch harry potter with me and keep asking me to don't worry. But at that time, I refuse to listen and cried because of it. 

Haha~ syg just in time for it. See~ on 14 th July the release of harry potter the movie and syg coming back on the 15th of July. Weeee~ hate to admit but it seems like everything comes natural. Im very very happy about it~ Super duper happy !! more than words it self. 

I can't wait for that day. Hehe~ 

This time I must do the picture for syg. It will be my mission but at the mean time I still have  economic problem but I work things out. Just have to be patient . Wish me luck. 

I can't really think much cause im over happy. C: 

For this week, I kinda get the feeling of being more lazy than I've use too but that does not mean in my studies as well. The more I become lazy is because of too much stress, day by day that has pass the stress level get higher and higher. That's why, Im thinking of a way to release tension or stress by going for a short trip or go shopping or go some where near for picnic as long do something that is fun.

Yesterday, I start tuition again but now change to damai perdana. My first class with Mr. Alex is BM I felt that is not bad. I like the way he teach and how he explain things.Today im having SEJ don't know which teacher yet. Im gonna find out soon.

Today is the fourth day since syg left k.l sis and I miss syg very much. Syg has been very busy lately so did not get to chat much. But when syg able to call just to wake me up, syg wouldn't miss the chance. Now, I never less holding my phone where ever I go. Im more on busy doing finish my school work and start reading all subject. I can't forget that syg put effort to give motivation by giving me fails and book clip and few exercise books. Syg gave it to me before syg left K.L. So, now im using it. Hehe~

stress

I've been into a lot of stress lately. Always feeling sleep being sick and have this  problem that my body is very heaty. All I can say is, more updates will be coming up about what? im not sure yet. So stay tune~
Peace out guys !

Harry Potter

When I saw the poster as my sista was driving to viva. I got all excited I directly look at the date when its gonna release on 4th of July but when I recheck it. It becomes 14th of July, do you know what I think?? I think Im over excited til I left to see there is a number 1 beside the 4 or maybe just maybe....really is tomorrow. Hmmmmmm, where did I saw that huge poster at? I can't remember. ><"

This Harry Potter movie is very important to me. Why ?  Because Im so in love with the movie, I never miss it. I start to watch this movie since the very beginning. Don't believe ? Ask my parents and you may ask me sista too. I always pull here to watch this movie although I've watch it 3 times or 300 times.

Well, key point is that, since this is my most favorite movie . I only watch this movie with the people who is important in my life. It really means a lot to me.

Get that ?

02.07.11

I watch this movie today. For me, there is only one word  AWESOME !!! Although it was scary but it also a funny movie. Thumbs up . I think when I was watching this movie whenever I get scared I keep moving up and down and left to right cover my eyes with both of my hands but eager to know what happen.

Today was the begging of the sad life although I know no matter what happens my sista is by my side but there is always the feeling of someone is missing and I think of that person without knowing my tears drop from my eyes. I can't control, I can't hold it back. But when im in front of other people I always ignore what  they are telling me about syg. I don't really wanna cry in front of other people, I think its a pantang for me. I don't  know whats the reason.

This few days I always write about syg already because I can't tell what I feel. But when I start to write about it, it comes naturally really is what on my mind and what I feel. Today, I did not talk much with syg. I just wanna hug syg. Just by that simple hug, it tells me that everything is all right and syg is here. 

To be honest, Im very bad with long distance relationship. But i always push myself to think positive, I just want to handle it with good care. 

Syg is the first person who keep telling me that im pretty. I truly appreciate it cause that's really important for a woman or a lady or a teenager because that allows to give them even more confident for them self. So, syg is a sweet person right ? hehe~ ya, I know. 

Well, I think im going to miss the beatboxs that syg do. All of that when syg feels bored or got nothing else to do. How the hell can I forget the cricket sound cause I only know one person who can do that. 

I feel like wanna smile but when I smile than I feel of crying back.

I don't know how to stop.

Hmmmmm.....
I feel sad......

Tomorrow is our last day together, after this will be more less than what we use to see each other. I knew syg will have a hard time over there, syg have no problem with communication only that sometime syg feel out of place when he did not have same race as syg even just a little bit ppl. I can't forget that the collage rules are tight too. I'll miss syg and syg's smell but yesterday I took syg's perfume. GOSH, i love love love love love x99 the smell. I smell it every night and day even if he haven't leave yet.

My heart crys very badly....and keep thinking that tomorrow is the finally !

I really dont want to image how hard am I gonna live without his support and his power of hug. hehe~ The outside of me looks. Yea, ok..im fine that your leaving. I visit you when i can. But the real thing is that, my heart said, NO NO NO. Can you don't go far? Don't leave so fast. Don't leave me alone here. The pain is unbearable .

Now, I've plan to do every little things I can with syg even crazy things make syg geli, play pillow fight, hug syg til don't wanna let go, asking syg to carry me every where, slap him (playing around), kick him, smell him like what dogs do and a lot more. I hope syg will miss every little thing so that he will come back every time he can. Hehe~ Shuuuuuuuuuu~=X "secret "

my heart still hurts......

mommy's birthday

Happy birthday Ma !!!
Sometimes I felt that she is very annoying and sometimes I felt that she is very bossy not only that loves to bully me T.T
Ya, no matter what she still my mother. Haha~ Mostly of my attitude is copy cat from my mom like bossy, temper, self fish, self center, quite, throw things around or destroy when angry. From my dad is soft hearted, never say no to a invitation, keep the angry to myself, forgetful and just put every situation like its whatever.

Arr..today is my mom's birthday and my dad come back late. LOL !