Im sorry because i haven't write for a long time. Even though i have time, i don't know what to write about.
Each time i post a blog, its truly from the heart. So, here i am i again...."as always".
As i look back in my past years, being a teenager. Always in a relationship, never was too long being single.
Well, sometimes when Im in a relationship and things turn bad. I would tell myself,' how nice if i was still single?"
Then, when Im single. I would sometimes say ' how nice if i could have a sweet boyfriend?'
Would you feel like that sometimes ? Or just me? i would love to know your opinion.
I can honestly say, when Im in a relationship. I always do my best, because i remember what my mother use to tell me, "help people when they need you cause you never know when you need their help in return."
Although my mother has been look as an bad apple for years and sadly to mention til now still is. She might look angry all the time but when in comes to relatives who are trouble with money or being hospitalized or even having troubles with family problem. She has been there helping and caring. She do what she can in her own capability in every situation.
But....... When she needs them, they were lost and out of sight. All you could see is darkness.
Yes, that's what i did with my all the ex's i been through. Ok, below 13 years old don't. I wasn't like that, i was a kid ! of course, i was a play girl til someone did the same way to me and i realize the pain.
Back to what i was saying, i been there each step of the way. Like being thier back bone even though i was being cheat, being plaied , being someone doll, and being use cause not on purpose.
Don't see me like a perfect person, cause Im not at all.
Sometimes is better to act stupid(even though not), just to see who was there for you and teaching you contiuneuastly.
I lost a friend who is very dearest person to me, cause of 'personal issue' ...
Gossip hurts, i put the past behind me and acting like nothing gone wrong before but trust is no longer there anymore.
Im sorry, if i did something bad or say something bad before this. Whatever it is that maybe still kept in your heart that i don't know. Still Im sorry...
I lost a lover that i thought was my soulmate, who start my problems with my dear friend and who took advantage of me and still keep telling me that he was not on purpose and it took him a year to realize it. The painful part was not there to protect me, this one is what i can't forgive. Protect is every girl needs, have you watch spider man, bat man even super man save thier lover from bad people in the movies.
When they just touch a hair of thier girl, the super hero's goes crazy and fight like hell.
Get what i mean ? Im honestly hurt, just think about it makes me cry. Infect, i am crying.
Im sorry if i was not perfect for you, maybe whatever i done to you in the past was not enough. Im sorry.. Okay?
Readers, please do tell me. Is that easy to forget and forgive? and would a agree to be couple once again ?
After so long, its hard not to think about this two but whenever i do so. I cried so bad and the pain kills me till i can't forget.
Maybe this issue is just a small matter and can change after few years.
Im sorry if think is..... A small issue but i can tell you this. Everyone has thier own limits and here is mine. And yes, after few years this will fade away but relation between us will never be the same again.
Each time i post a blog, its truly from the heart. So, here i am i again...."as always".
As i look back in my past years, being a teenager. Always in a relationship, never was too long being single.
Well, sometimes when Im in a relationship and things turn bad. I would tell myself,' how nice if i was still single?"
Then, when Im single. I would sometimes say ' how nice if i could have a sweet boyfriend?'
Would you feel like that sometimes ? Or just me? i would love to know your opinion.
I can honestly say, when Im in a relationship. I always do my best, because i remember what my mother use to tell me, "help people when they need you cause you never know when you need their help in return."
Although my mother has been look as an bad apple for years and sadly to mention til now still is. She might look angry all the time but when in comes to relatives who are trouble with money or being hospitalized or even having troubles with family problem. She has been there helping and caring. She do what she can in her own capability in every situation.
But....... When she needs them, they were lost and out of sight. All you could see is darkness.
Yes, that's what i did with my all the ex's i been through. Ok, below 13 years old don't. I wasn't like that, i was a kid ! of course, i was a play girl til someone did the same way to me and i realize the pain.
Back to what i was saying, i been there each step of the way. Like being thier back bone even though i was being cheat, being plaied , being someone doll, and being use cause not on purpose.
Don't see me like a perfect person, cause Im not at all.
Sometimes is better to act stupid(even though not), just to see who was there for you and teaching you contiuneuastly.
I lost a friend who is very dearest person to me, cause of 'personal issue' ...
Gossip hurts, i put the past behind me and acting like nothing gone wrong before but trust is no longer there anymore.
Im sorry, if i did something bad or say something bad before this. Whatever it is that maybe still kept in your heart that i don't know. Still Im sorry...
I lost a lover that i thought was my soulmate, who start my problems with my dear friend and who took advantage of me and still keep telling me that he was not on purpose and it took him a year to realize it. The painful part was not there to protect me, this one is what i can't forgive. Protect is every girl needs, have you watch spider man, bat man even super man save thier lover from bad people in the movies.
When they just touch a hair of thier girl, the super hero's goes crazy and fight like hell.
Get what i mean ? Im honestly hurt, just think about it makes me cry. Infect, i am crying.
Im sorry if i was not perfect for you, maybe whatever i done to you in the past was not enough. Im sorry.. Okay?
Readers, please do tell me. Is that easy to forget and forgive? and would a agree to be couple once again ?
After so long, its hard not to think about this two but whenever i do so. I cried so bad and the pain kills me till i can't forget.
Maybe this issue is just a small matter and can change after few years.
Im sorry if think is..... A small issue but i can tell you this. Everyone has thier own limits and here is mine. And yes, after few years this will fade away but relation between us will never be the same again.
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