I never wrote anything about Erwan in my blog anymore even though i very piece off or thankful to him.
His way of thinking is still immature yet, so my way of settling things with him is also immature.
So, when i write something that is related to him. He thinks that i still care or "love" him still, but actually not. This is the place where I express myself and the way i think of things, or how i feel about those things and my opinion about it.
I have wrote that this blog is my diary, mostly about daily life. Im not a writer, i don't create story and i don't make up story.
Anyone is welcome to read, if your not interested you may leave. It is easy as that. But please do forgive me for my grammar mistaken and spelling. I do make this mistaken offen but Im learning.
I do have to apologies to anyone in Facebook if i have disturb anyone about my insults to Erwan's wall. Or even to my on wall in my second account.
He dont understand if i scold him, he never rethink about the stuff he do or say. I have to tell him little step by little before he understand. If you can't be with my standard, just go away. The word that i prefer to use is fuck off.
Without pushing and scolding, he is just there. Waiting and waiting, if you ask me from the look of his face. He will waiting for order cause that's the way his mother treat him.
Yes, i can teach him things that he don't know but please Im not a mother. I need a boyfriend not a bodyguard, big baby, idiot, kid in my life. If i continue to let it be the same, i should not be called as girlfriend anymore, it should be mentor not lover.
I've once say before, for me in relationship there must be trust. Without it will you believe whatever your partner tells you ? No right? You, yourself will be wondering that is it true or just another story that he/she make up? Tell me, with honest heart, wont you think the same as I ? Or to foolish to believe it. Till one day, when it's to late then only you realized he/she lied or cheated.
I kept reminding him and scolding, his action only get better after a year. But within that whole year, the result is not as what i wanted it to be.
I really cant have it in life right now. His not the one for me. Life with him is horrible, each time like there is war. Go out also like war because too much enemies outside the walls. I honestly can that me and him is not a couple, no matter what name's he call me in remains the same just friends.
I cannot be with a person who cant even protect me. People might say, it has been a year, why not compromise?
My answer will be my heart really not happy, no matter what i do my heart is not happy. In love, which one do you follow? by heart or by mind ?
It's like a glass once was a beautiful glass but a careless person drop it even though by accident, can you put back that glass back it's original place ?
no matter, how will you put it. The scars can never hide.
It's gone forever. Even though it was accident, it's gone. If you do apperciate what you have will you let those things happen ? Nothing is excuse when you understand the meaning of apperciate.
His way of thinking is still immature yet, so my way of settling things with him is also immature.
So, when i write something that is related to him. He thinks that i still care or "love" him still, but actually not. This is the place where I express myself and the way i think of things, or how i feel about those things and my opinion about it.
I have wrote that this blog is my diary, mostly about daily life. Im not a writer, i don't create story and i don't make up story.
Anyone is welcome to read, if your not interested you may leave. It is easy as that. But please do forgive me for my grammar mistaken and spelling. I do make this mistaken offen but Im learning.
I do have to apologies to anyone in Facebook if i have disturb anyone about my insults to Erwan's wall. Or even to my on wall in my second account.
He dont understand if i scold him, he never rethink about the stuff he do or say. I have to tell him little step by little before he understand. If you can't be with my standard, just go away. The word that i prefer to use is fuck off.
Without pushing and scolding, he is just there. Waiting and waiting, if you ask me from the look of his face. He will waiting for order cause that's the way his mother treat him.
Yes, i can teach him things that he don't know but please Im not a mother. I need a boyfriend not a bodyguard, big baby, idiot, kid in my life. If i continue to let it be the same, i should not be called as girlfriend anymore, it should be mentor not lover.
I've once say before, for me in relationship there must be trust. Without it will you believe whatever your partner tells you ? No right? You, yourself will be wondering that is it true or just another story that he/she make up? Tell me, with honest heart, wont you think the same as I ? Or to foolish to believe it. Till one day, when it's to late then only you realized he/she lied or cheated.
I kept reminding him and scolding, his action only get better after a year. But within that whole year, the result is not as what i wanted it to be.
I really cant have it in life right now. His not the one for me. Life with him is horrible, each time like there is war. Go out also like war because too much enemies outside the walls. I honestly can that me and him is not a couple, no matter what name's he call me in remains the same just friends.
I cannot be with a person who cant even protect me. People might say, it has been a year, why not compromise?
My answer will be my heart really not happy, no matter what i do my heart is not happy. In love, which one do you follow? by heart or by mind ?
It's like a glass once was a beautiful glass but a careless person drop it even though by accident, can you put back that glass back it's original place ?
no matter, how will you put it. The scars can never hide.
It's gone forever. Even though it was accident, it's gone. If you do apperciate what you have will you let those things happen ? Nothing is excuse when you understand the meaning of apperciate.
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